Nightmare of my dream

7:59 am

I have been asleep for thirty minutes and now I can't go back.

I was in an auditorium waiting to go on stage with a selected partner in front of other actors and directors and a panel of judges. I was so ready and excited and eager. When my name was called I realized I was chewing on gum. Before I went on stage I asked to spit out my gum, so I quickly went to the bathroom and spit out the gum. but it wouldn't come out it was stuck, I finally got it out and more appears so I'm trying to get all of this gum out of my mouth which is stuck in my teeth and it keeps coming. I finally get the last piece out and my tooth comes out with it. now my mouth is filling with blood and I've been worried about taking too long since I walked out of the auditorium. I save the tooth and a paper towel but decides to just throw it away with the rest of the soiled paper towels. This actress that is working on a film set is in the same bathroom as me, she likes me and wants to keep in contact put me with the right people. She was very endearing. The whole panel of directors walks in the bathroom right up to me and says that my "____" will not be tolerated. I tried to explain my tooth came out and showed them my new gap and the lady said your tooth has been out. so I said I can show you the tooth and runs to the garbage can. The panel leaves the bathroom. I started digging to find the bunch of soiled paper towels, which should be on the top but they were no longer there.  I look for the actress so I can give her my number and I can not find her anywhere. Now somebody's portfolio falls right in front of me and I bend over to pick it up. When I stand up a guy is in front of me and tells me it's his portfolio and it was zipped up. he looked at me like I was a thief and tells me he could kill me. I didn't open your portfolio I only tried to pick it up because it fell. he tells me he could kill me because I set the perfect example of what not to do. when I tried to explain he told me this is a master acting class not a community theatre and walked away. I felt so low because I couldn't explain myself no one cared for my reasons, they didn't even believe a word I said. I started sinking into a fetal position wishing I could go home so my boyfriend could hold me and then I realized I didn't have a boyfriend anymore so I just held myself tighter and started to cry.

Today is a busy day for me but I must do it with that little 30 min energizer I got. If you know anything about psychoanalysis you know the blanks and missing parts are the key. There's something there that my unconscious is covering up. I mostly wrote this blog because I know exactly how I felt when I woke up from this dream and I can not explain that in words. That is a feeling I need to keep with me so when I read this again I will know.

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I'm finally done with my day here, been here since 10am. Love the cast and crew, this is going to be a great project and we are def. going to be family by the end.

Hello Again my friend

Update: My life has been extremely busy and hectic and crazy Beautiful. I had to make time for a new blog post, it's been long overdue. I have so much news to share with you... but you have to wait for it because it's a surprise!

Just to give you a little insight into what's been up with me, I have signed on for two new projects, one starts shooting next week and the other project starts choreography tomorrow! YIKES!! lol just kidding I'm ready for a good workout. I get to meet all of the cast and crew and will be in meetings and rehearsals all day.

Good News: My character for Complexity web series, Kelly, has been expanded. More lines, More scenes, More DRAMA! I start back shooting on that project next week also. Our lovely director has been working hard on the website, so when it's ready you have to check it out.

I've just been confirmed on a role in a feature that will begin shooting this summer.  The director tells me it's highly dramatized so bring on the waterworks (tears). He must haven't seen me in Shafted. lol

And I had a good time last week on the movie set for Hall Pass starring Owen Wilson. Happy I was able to meet him, really a great guy.

This may be a lot of updates to intake but I have to fill you in, with my schedule who knows when I'll be able to give you the scoop. So.....

One day in the past two months while roaming through my hard drive, I discovered a screenplay that I started back in 2008. Read it like I never wrote it (of course I forgot everything) and laughed and loved it. In my free time I've been working on that screenplay, finishing writing the pilot episode and figuring out the ideal cast. Now I have to location scout, gather a crew, develop a press kit, book the cast and soooo much more..... AY YA YI (Is that how Ricky Ricardo say it?)

I've also been working on my press kit. Oh you didn't know? Yes that's right.
I am Niki Collier the Actress/Model/Writer/Director/Graphic Designer/Publicist. Now ya know, lol.

One more thing! we are soooooooo super close to the launching of NIKICOLLIER.com
*designed by me* :)